At the beginning of their friendship, Lila and Lenú’s lives are following fairly similar tracks. Just as they were when standing on the threshold of Don Achille’s door, Lila and Lenú are again on the verge of something that will change their lives. However, this time they are not facing it together. Lenú is about to start high school, and Lila beginning her life of work in her father’s shoe store. Rather than finding solace and a sense of bravery with each other, Lenú is angered when Lila attempts to follow along her path.
Lenú finds that even with all this difference between their lives now, Lila still manages to keep close. Before Lenú has even started high school Lila reveals she has already learnt some Greek, before Lenú has. “She had done it on her own, while I hadn’t even thought about it… Would she always do the things I was supposed to do, before and better than me? She eluded me when I followed her and meanwhile stayed close to my heels in order to pass me?”
Lenú is angered by the idea that Lila is still beating her in her studies despite no longer attending school. She is not comforted by the fact she can share in her studies with her friend, but rather dislikes Lila for not only keeping pace with her, but going ahead of her.
At the same time, Lenú is equally affected when Lila stops studying. Lenú finds that she has no interest in her studies if they do not involve Lila. “…since Lila had stopped pushing me, anticipating me in my studies, and my reading, school… had stopped being a kind of adventure and had become only a thing that I knew how to do well and was much praised for” (P 187)
Lenú no longer feels consoled by Lila being with her. She seems to feel no relief whether Lila is with her or not. She is intimidating when Lila studies with her. When Lila show no interests in studies, Lenú does not either. Lila acts as both Lenú’s inspiration, pushing her to do well in school, and her antagonist, making her feel inadequate. Whether in competition with Lila or not, Lenú can not find a balance in her relationship with Lila. Their friendship has turned into one of codependency, Lenú needs competition with Lila to give herself an aim of what to do, ie Lila is the best students so Lenú needs to be second best. But at the same time, Lenú is always devastated when she cannot reach Lila. She wants Lila to be the best, but is upset that she herself will always be second best. It is a paradox, she both wants herself to be the best, but also wants Lila to be the best.